Wednesday, January 07, 2009
my heart hurts because i don't have the basica support and trust from my family..
i feel like leaving..
its like meaningless..
they haven even hear what i wanna say..
and they just jump into conclusions..
ohh..they never listened..
i thought back into the past and realised..
i wasn't really happy at all..
my choices were always rejected..rejected by them..
alright,, just say that i'm useless,, stupid and dumb..
all i can say is that,, i've tried my very best and i'm tired..
tired of al the naggings,, tired of all the unnecessary worries,, tired of all the rejections,, tired of all your commands,, tired of sharing a room...
i can't communicate with you all anymore..
the truth ::
- i've paid my learning materials using my own pocket money
- i've NEVER asked for more money
- you ask me to be home,, i came home [ even though i wanna stay just a little longer.. ]
- i've NEVER really quarelled with you
- in fact,, i didn't even argue back most of the time
its always been like that..
sorry that i've wasted unnecessary money at times..
i'll pay you back..not even a cent less..
you want interest ? you ask for it,, i'll give as soon as i go out for work..
monthly allowance,, i'll give you more than what brother gives..
SIP is about experience,, not money..
no matter where i go,, it doesnt matter..
YOU are not the one going anyway..
shan't talk..
i think i'll be a bad daughter because i said this in public..
but so what ?
i don't feel like caring anymore...
and..
DON'T LINK THIS WITH HIM..
if my ties with him is affected because of you..
i don't think i'll forgive you...ever...
- i'm shaking... -
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