finally blogger back to normal..
but not in a good mood today..
sort of unlucky today..

i didnt make it..my dance...
its gone..its over..
i wanted it so much..
my class peeps got in except me..
my friend said OPHIX ppl 15 joined only 2 cannot make it..
then i guess i'm one of the two..
no..not guess..is confirmed..
i'm such a failure...

held my tears for so long..
trying to be brave in front of my friends..
trying to be brave while i'm still outside..
listening to my music to calm myself down..
a tear rolled down when i'm on bus 88..
i couldn't stand it anymore...

wanted to catch the last ten minutes of my favourite drama..
mama nagged..saying i'm dirty and asked to go bathe..
yeah..i'm feeling dirty myself...
threw my bag on my room floor..
took my clothes and went to bathe..
finally..i burst..
at least in somewhere where there's no one..
only me..alone..
my heart hurts..still hurting..making my whole body numb..

but still,, i'm happy for those who had made it..
grats..work hard yeah..? =)
fulfil my passion to the fullest..
i thank you...

maybe its fate..i don't belong to the dance floor..
i'll accept it..i will...